Thursday, July 10, 2008 @ 10:15 AM.
Had aTERRIBLE DAY.Fight in de house bcos of one fucking thing dat is actully an misunderstanding thingy! Its so de damn lame!I didnt do things dat I knw I cant do it. Dat tyme is how muchh I knw how much my daddy trusted me. I knw wen I gave my words, I will alwaies treasure it. I will give out my words criously and wont play with it. Words are more sharper den a knife. and i will alwaies remember dat sentences. Afte all de arhuement,[cant even imagine how I cried! I cried as if sumone died. I SWEAR I did! Goshh!]. It was just a freaking mistakes of message. dats oll. Goshh! Anyway, I still have things in my mind. Still feel dat Im lack of lurff. My dad is on his past bck. Im so damn sad abt dat. I dont knw if he relised. But Im so de frustrated with hyme. If he scolds me just because of de fucking thingy, den i have no choice by ignoring him. My lurff for hyme is deep and I cant show it alawaies. my lurff for hgyme is unxpreessed. dats why. Its more den words. i just want de love dat he used to give it to me.
I mishh HILMAN. and I cant denied it. I dotn knw why I felt this way. wen u think bck, wern we were in a relationship, even after I gave him a second chance, he dont tresure it, Shud i gave hyme a third chance? I dont thnik so. His suchh a sweettalkmotherfucker! he told shasha-DIVA dat he was just using SABRINA! he dont lurff sab de way he lurffs me. he is just using herr. He mishh me so damn much. His reactions shows as we went to de movies de other day. yeaa. i dont knw wat to do. i just need sumone so dat I can forget him for gud. i want lurff. i dont want to remeber de old days I with him. haishh! Please daddy! I need ur lurff! muahhh!
But now, in my mind, in my heart, i lurff and mishh daddy - NICK - NATASHA and SHASHA_DIVA! dats oll! :)
