Monday, May 12, 2008 @ 12:40 PM.
Yesh! Dats de THEME for my blog today. I dont really knw wat had happen I guess. But I knw, dat im not a small little kid dat people can kidd me around and tell once upon a time story. I hate it. Pple LOVES judging me and shoot me in de head without any strong and good reason. I dont get it why they loves doing dat. I knw teres sumthing wrong sumwhre. And yet dat person do not want to settle it nor talk bout things dat we cant get along together. Im happy dat I still have sumone whu cares and filed my time with laughter and tears. I appereciate it lots. Its okay if dat sumone doesnt want to talk or settle things but I xpect the words dat will hurs me cud not b heard to others. Now dat i knw, im hurt and sad. Totally helpless. I dont knw whre I've gone wrong. Just wish sumone cud xplain things to me And make me feel abit of relieve. I dont even knw wat de hack im going thru. And 1 thing dat i knw, Im LOST! AND plus more, hear things dat shud not b heard. Gossips? News? Betrayed?. I knw my family is bad. I knw it all along. But 1 thing for sure dat, I cant b ar apart form my family. Will go thru thick and thin with them. friends I can throw away. But not family even tho how much I hatered them. Im not a bad girl dat will want to take revenge in watever had happen. I knw what im doin. I will just carry on with the plan dat I have came up for dat girl dat I lurfs so much. I dont knw if de feeking gonna fade away soon. Haish! I will just be my own tho. I mish my daddy. De old him dat I used to knw. Im waiting for de day dat I will be missing DAMn lots just like de tyme wen im in US! I will be different. And cant wait to change de situation of "like" have lost him. I will definitly change. Dats my words. 
