Tuesday, April 22, 2008 @ 3:20 PM.
Didnt go to skool today as I got MC for 2 days! Yea! haha! But was DAMN bored duh. Now, I feel lacked of love from my daddy. I am sick but noone cares. they thout dat the cause of my sick is because dat I alwaies go out on saturday nite. Its not dat at oll. I being left out now. And getting myself STRESS! Really damn stress. Dats why, i better hang myself out with friends, den stress myself with the eviroment dat i dont enjoy. Study is study and enjoy is enjoy. Dats me and noonew can stooped me. Unless i use the advamtage wronly, Den my both parents can scold me and nagg till my head can b blowned off as it is my fault. I did not put myself in a company dat is bad. I never smoke nor DRINk not EVEN DRUG i have teaseted. I knw how to take care of myself. Now, my problems are on my own with noone special knowing it. Im bored with my family life but as i PROMISe myself, i will never give up on them no matter what. I just want my dad to knw dat ZAhirah is still Zahirah b4. I just need sum space to contain myself. I just need sum space to breath with sum NEW friends. But I knw what is my limits and all. Im sad so sad wen i have to pay my medicals fe by my own. It shows me dat, goin thru thick or thin, he will counts. Im sick and noone care and i have to pay my own in everything. I thout im still under my parents responsiblity. But im wrong as i have knw NOW, i have to struggle my self now. I have to wotk to earn the money. Now, im goin to take the decision of werking outside. And not with my daddy! Yep! dats me. Now.:)!:(!
Im not enjoying the friends dat i have. Only my guy friends. yep. I dont knw why. Teyare not the type at all dat i need. Not even my BFF! She doesnt care bout me at all. Yep! Im xpecting her to ask and care for me. But I did not received news of asking me if im olryte. Im sad. Im depressed. I am. Hope, dats sumone dat cud cure my pain...........
