Thursday, March 13, 2008 @ 7:46 PM.
The whether today is so damn cold. I slept most of the time. Its like SNOWING in s'pore! ha3! BORINK: thats the topic for my blog today. It was a bored day today as I think things had shaken abit today. I dont knw if I must take my first step in this situation. Haix. I just dont want to waste anytime as its a early stage for the relationship. I shud decide how I want it to be. And what i WANT in future is very important. Its enough of wasting time in the past and I dont want to repeat the same old thing in the present life ryte now. Why I choose this route and now, im regreting it myself! Foolish me. I dont knw and have no idea that it will end-up this way. I just want support so that I will not have a blank mind how to settle things around. *He did not come to work today, as the reason of his absent is "he woke up late". In my mind, Cant he like bother calling and inform my dad, den, keeping quiet and waiting for others to call you to find out? He doesnt have his own initiative at all to take his first step. He did told me yesterday that "mayb" he is coming and when he talk, It seems that he ,most probaly coming to work. But wen, I say that I m not coming to work, his voice reaction, changed. And its like, he want me to b there too, and it look likes to me, he must have me there and den, he will work! BULLSHIT! hate the way he acted! He said sorry to MAI? Cant he go up to my dad and say sorry to my dad himself? IS THIS YOU CALL A GENTALMAN? Oh gosh! He really keep my dad waiting. And I hate it! I hate pple making my dad like 1 STUPID FOOL, AWaiting for him. AND add on, my MuM must come down and help my dad. Pity NISA! I dont know far shud I stand in this situation anymore. Im making myself stress out in this 1 FUCKING matter! Mayb im ryte. The thing that make me stay in this LOVE bcos, he makes me feel LOVE~! Im LOST IN LOVE! Thats me. And I want to get up on my feet! And be who I want to be. What shud I do? I knw I cant force him. And I dont knw how to make it change. I know 1 thing that watever I said to him yesterday, doesnt make him think and he doesnt get the picture. The reason why i knw that is bcos, his attitude always remain the same. I want to have a FUN,LOVING,adventourous relationship and not a boring type. As pple say, mayb he has what I want in my dream guy's attitude but he doesnt have the type of how he shud treat me and stuffs! In this matter, I dont include "MONEY". Cos, what I know is that, without money if you want to make a person happy, you can make it in many ways. I MISH NATASHA! :) FYYZA :) MUNN:) SHASHA:)
