I know that we both dont' have other choice then to separate. We have too. Its for our future. I do understand. The feeling of lost, of course I feel it. I feel it badly. To be apart from you, I hate it the most. Im weak, I cant' hold my tears even for an hour. Im lost in a world that I dont' know what to do next. Mayb im too young for this or I just cant' accept the fact that its olrydy like this and its all because of our ways that lead us to becoming what we are today. But irah harap and slalu b'doa, that everything will brubah for the better. Irah sayang Andre. Perasaan nie akn tetap mcm gytu smpai bylerbyler. Wlwpn kyter jauh, irah hrp perasaan kyter b'2 tk akn brubah. I'll always be there for you and I hope you will also be there for me. Cause, of course I do need you badly. Things gonna change sumhow, and it wont' la be lyke this forever.:) Parents have no confident with me sumhow, as they think im a jerk because of the decisions I've made without them knwing.. I know its my fault and I do accept it. All I and you have to do is to prove to the people hu thinks we are jerk, that they are wrong.. Lyke I told you before sayang, if you semangat, I'll also be semangat.. I'll be the best for you if you want to sarcrifice and go all the way for this lyfe of ours aite sayang.. Hhmm.. I miss Shasha. But she seems to changed. Mayb shes busy. But, tkkn even her off day, she cant' lyn me textin her.. Haishh, Im sad cause I dont' usually get to text her alwaies. Cause Im alwaies out of town. Mayb too she have new friends that can celebrate her birthday with her, give her surprises, and I cant'. I just wanne say that Im sowie, cause this year have been a hard and worse one for me and family.. My financial became worst den ever.. So I cant' give or spent on you or surprise you.. But I can still send you a smz that cost FREE & or 5cents. Im sorry. You know, if you watch KARATE KID, you will notice and remember one part, cause the movie is GREAT!! The one part is" TOO MUCH OF GOOD THING IS A BAD THING". That's the part.. So to my dearest friend Shasha, do have fun tyme aite, don't stress in work. You must work smart.:)

Im just patiencely waiting for an answer from the ITE teacher as if I can study again in the same course. Did a big mistake of leaving school without being thrown out. But still dissapointed with me & family's decisions. Hmph!! The past is the past. Now, its tyme to re-correct the mistakes that had been made:) Anw, still missing the friends that Im loving:)

It was raining the whole mawnin. From abt 4 till mawnin:) Got one lightning that is so damn loud, & I was damn scare of it, I dont' know why. Need to urine pon takot. Haishh. Lucky not alone shey:) Hugg Andre tight:) Ahaas:) Hubby worked up, had a plan olrydy. Since he gt to spore, his intention is to visit his fathers' graveyard:) So, his intention dat he keep as his wish, came true. At last, he got to see whre his being buried:) Im happy for him. Im having a other plan, since tuday im not following him, mayb another day, I will be going there with my family, and I want to take picture, so dat I can show to the others that is in Palembang & Batam:) Okayla, nuthing more to say.

toddlexz:)

Im full for yesterday. Haha:) Wanne know why, I was being feed by Andre's family with alot of food. Sat there, And all I did is to eat. eat. eat:) &&&& kene ceramah. ahhas. Okay. Had a fun tyme uhh. Because Kak Roza is so kind and funny. She loves to jokes and I love hearing her jokes all day. Never get bored:) That Family is a Fun-Loving Family:) I do feel welcome:) Thankies all:)

Having a future plan of staying separate house from family. Hope the plans will worked just fyne:)

Anw, Puase is just arnd the corner:)

Toddlexz.:)